Trying to stay on the right path

So. Well. Hmm. It's the first week of Summer Session II and it's been up and down. Therapy was on Wednesday which was very empowering and it just became apparent to me that I have grown a lot and am going to be okay. TUesday was my first day of class. Intro to Stage Management kinda stresses me out because it's not something I'm totes into nor something I really have experience with so its new and scary. EEK. But The business of show business is LOVE. ahh yes. Yesterday we watched the video of The Secret which was very inspiring. It's the second time I've seen it and so I was refreshed and ready to put it into my life. But I've had an impossible time! AAAH. Maybe I'm just hella negative and have so many bad thoughts that they cancel out my positive thoughts :( Or fuck I dont know. But i left class feeling good and then went home and had a frustrating singing lesson and had a stupid time in the gym and it's like WTF I affirmed that I was going to be productive and an awesome singer! And then today..AHHHHHHH i had suc ha discouraging lesson when I deliberately was like "I
'm going to have a good lesson today"..so WHAT WENT WRONG? how am i supposed to get into MT 2 is my voice teacher thinks i've reached a wall that i may not get over! Thats not encouraging! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I a;slfka'fk'fka'fl I'm super pouty and i just wanna eat chocolate and cry and punch things. I need HELP! HOW DID I GET SO OFF TRACK! WHAT AM I DOING!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

k..brb rounds..at work..AGH


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